So now are you ready for more - do you want a peek inside Julie's head?

I kinda like doing this now it might seem a bit rambly but that's the sort of person I am - WELL it is now didn't always used to be because not only has my inside changed but my outer look has changed as well.

This is supposed to be about me right?  Well two years ago I was 8 stone heavier and no I'm not going to show you the photos but I WILL show you a photo of me a year ago and one now to show you what I can now see.

I didn't think I looked any different at all - you all know how you think you look in the mirror my perception of how I looked was way different but that's because I had been a lot bigger for a lot of my life - there is a story in here that will be for later which shows you that I'd not always been bigger but as I said I think that's for somewhere down the line not now not when you are getting to know the real Julie.  Infact I'm just getting used to knowing the new Julie, its quite a surprise and people sort of seem to like it.

The first photo was taken a year ago and I was heavier then not 8 stone heavier than I am now but a lot heavier and in my head I still thought up until the other day I was that woman.

Now take a look at the second photo that's me a couple of days ago - right huh why didn't I see it before, perhaps you have a mental image stuck in your mind when you are much bigger.

Then scan the pictures at how I look in my eyes - can you see in the second photo I'm happy, I'm so happy, I want to give off that glow always and PLAN on doing it!

I'm now the size that Marilyn Monroe always was a size 16 and I'm planning on losing more weight - but its not because I want to be Marilyn - goodness gracious that would be ridiculous!  But its for me that I want to lose more weight I now can accept compliments on how I look I couldn't before - ANOTHER major thing for me, now it's about being as great as I feel on the inside, showing on my outer shell and I know that you can be a fabulous person heavier or lighter but this is my story and this is how I feel.

Healthy is the way to go for me because with my family history I want to be the best Julie inside and out that I can be and I think I'm giving off that sort of glow now, I kinda feel it & others have reinforced it but I KNOW and that's the most important part me knowing that I'm OK, I'm good, I'm not perfect but then who in the hell wants to be perfect - NOT ME! 

Enough for now I think because there's a lot more about Julie that you'll find out.

I think the main message I'm trying to get across is that love yourself whether you be bigger or smaller, smaller is working for me but body type doesn't matter to me where friends are concerned, you can be heavy/thin somewhere inbetween - I'm going for the inbetween - I think it sort of suits my character to be not one side of the scale but somewhere in the middle - basically feel comfortable in your own skin and I SO DO now I SO DO.

We'll talk again I'm sure of it.

Jewels xx