So Let's Find Out a Bit More About Me - Now Are You Sure You Want To?!

So I did my last blog months ago and didn't publish it hmm that is a bit like me I'm a self confessed Libran with all of those traits and thought well what will people think of me?

Now comes the BIG part in my life a lot has changed in those few months, unwittingly people have helped me along the way, I've decided to shed my skin funny analogy a bit like a snake peeling off my insecurities layer by layer, basically trying to make myself a better person (cry at the back says you're not one of these people that force your opinion on other people).  No I'm not.  I like to take people as I find them and with a few weird experiences along the way (but then don't we all have some) I like to make people happy.

BUT the biggest thing I've realised is that to help others to be happy is that you have to be fully yourself and that's me now I don't really care what people think of me, sure you're going to have people that like you and people that don't.  Maybe its an age thing?  Doubt it I'm only 37 and not ready for a middle age change but I am ready for a before 40 type of change and that is what I'm aiming to do and succeeding.  See I praised myself then something I would never have done before.

Hmm this is getting a bit deep isn't, are you sure you want to read on?  Well I'm hoping so because that's really why I am doing this.  It's to finally become the Julie that has always been inside of me, sure she scrambled out on a few occasions but I've always been a bit withdrawn in my past and boom suddenly over the last couple of months I've thought why am I like this?  Why not just be me?

So now am I am just being me, I'm accepting compliments, I would never have done before, I thought I wasn't the perfect size 10 or whatever your country's equivalent is, I thought I didn't deserve them.  Stupid huh?  Yeah NOW I realise that.

I'm 8 stone lighter than I was 2 years ago but you know I feel like double that weight has been lifted off my shoulders, I feel free (cheesy huh?) but sometimes cheesy works well it has for me.

I'm doing things I would NEVER have thought I would have been able to I'm even going on a plane even though I'm frightened beyond words to do it but sometimes in life you have to stand back and think hmm if I don't push myself to do things I never ever will and this feels like the right time.

This feels like the right time to do a lot of things and you know what I'm smiling from my ankles upwards to find out what's next on my journey through life, never had a plan for my life - sort of have now and that's a good thing.

So that's a bit more about me, I'm a weird mix of things but then all of us are aren't we that's why no two fingerprints are the same, we're individuals and that is why people become interested in us they want to know our story and that's what I hope to do in my blogs tell my story - its probably not that much different than a lot of people's but it's my story and that's why it's important for me to tell it.

I'll write more soon, I'm kinda liking this now.

Jewels xxxxxx